Helsinki.

Man, it's been a while :)

Nowadays I live in Helsinki and I love my living here. There is not so much school for me right now and I'm living with my best friend. It's been the most awesome two weeks here and we have had so much fun. I'm doing music now and I have such a good feeling what all this will become. This university enviroment is so interesting.. so many people, interesting people.. culture and so many possibilitys.

I found myself my own appartment room too but it's no good. I think I will live there only for next month.. we'll see.. Luckily I think I found myself a job for the whole summer and it's in my hometown Varkaus. I certainly need some money right now for my investments and to pay next years rents. But everything's going to be all right. I'm sure :)

I'm not going to stop writing this blog, I hope! I have many things to say.

I'm out.

Today I moved out of the house. It wasn't so hard to leave.. I will miss you Jake. You were such a good boy.. The only hard part was to get all my stuff together. It's just.. impossible to get all on these three bags. I really have to figure out something.

Now I'm living at my friend Katharinas house for this day and tomorrow I have to move on again.. Finnish Lutheran Churchs is waiting for me :) I'm so waiting for my sister and aunt already to get here! Tonight the farewell dinner with friends. 

I'm gonna be free.

Tomorrow is going to be the last day in this house and it feels so good! I have two nights in between before my sister and aunt come here so I got to find a place to sleep.. I have had some troubles with that but now it looks like everything's gonna be all right :) Christ is my savior.

Sunny day Cowboy.

I'm coming home.

Lots have happened after I last time wrote here. Now it's certainly time to make this known. I write this here because I don't want to explain it again and again a thousand times to people who ask.

To make it short: I'm flying home, Finland, for good on tuesday 6th of April and should be in Helsinki 7th of April around 17 o'clock. The plan is to stay in Varkaus for few days and then move myself to Helsinki.

So what's going on? About three weeks ago I got an e-mail from my LCC (support person for au pairs) about how we have to meet and talk about serious stuff. On that moment I started to seriously think if I want to leave this family. I thought "If this is going to be the same shit they give me back home and now I have to drive there to hear the same: I'll leave." Well it was even worse and here we are. I thought about it for two weeks and decided.

When I decided to leave my host-family I was well aware that changes not-to-be-send-home are very little. And I was totally ok with it. If that's going to be my destiny it shall. And that's what happened. 

Why did I decide to leave my host-family? The host-parents were thinking how I did't do my job well. That I don't clean well, that I'm rude and not helpful, that I don't interact well with the children.. I just couldn't agree with any of that. I think I did my job well. I was a good au pair. But it just wasn't enough for them. And I decided I don't want to work for them anymore if they can't be satisfied on me. The other big reason for my decicion was that I didn't feel myself comfortable living in this house anymore. The kids of this family are great, the mother one of the sweetest persons I've ever met.. but we just couldn't get along with the host-father. I don't really want to start specify this here but I just didn't want to live in a same house with him anymore.

After this came official the office decided not to replace me but to pay my flight home. I'm not dissapointed on this. It's been hell of a 7 months here and I'm happy to return home :)

So what now? I will move to Helsinki, first to stay at my best friends appartment and start to find myself my own appartment, start to study hard and try to find a job aside studying. It's going to be good life :) I'm confident in this. I've missed student life so much :D I gues you always ache for what you don't have.

OK, I gues that's it. There was so much info to write that couldn't make this a good text. But it's important you guys know what's going on :)

To friends: Please give me some time (at least a day) to calm down before you rip me to everywhere :D Want to meet you all when the time is right!!!

PS. I still have a lots to write about (critics on Cultural Care etc.) so keep on tuned on Blueberry Diaries!

All off..

We are so off. No electricity, no heating, no hot water. It's so cold and dark!! Showers at the gym, internet in the restaurant, food from the Dunkin Dounuts. This is hard. Have tons of things to write about but don't have internet time. I'll write all later! Take Care!

Brooklyn Bridge.